Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me. Your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

I had it all, friends family, happiness.. and in an instant I successfully throw everything away... but for what?

I didn´t mean to hurt anyone, especially not my friend nor my family...I was confused, drunk, I...to many bad memories came fourth and my anger and confusion was to strong for me to handle...I coudn´t help myself, I just had to stop the ringing in my brain!!!!...I just wish I had been alone at that time...So that no other then me would´ve got hurt...

As soon as I let someone in... I just chase them away again...?

I´m so angry, depressed and sad all the time...and I don´t know why... "/


I didn´t have what you would call a "traditional near death experience"....All of my memories didn´t just flash by me in a second...it went really slow...each and every joyfull memory I´ve ever had, it felt like I re-living them once more!